Happy Valentines Day

When I was child, I was dreaming of you.

When I started dating, I was looking for you

In my lowest of lows, I was wishing for you.

I didn’t know your name,

I didn’t know your face,

But I knew you all the same.

The way you push against me when we hug.

The way you smile at me when I look at you.

The way you love me for who I am.

The way you run your fingers through my hair.

The way you hold my hand, even when we’re on the couch.

The way you make me laugh.

The love in your kisses.

The love in your touch.

The love in your eyes.

All the tiny things you do that show you care.

I didn’t have to fall in love with you when we met

I’ve loved you my entire life.

Until Morning

It’s midnight now and I’m laying next to you in bed listening as your breathing slows, sleep overcoming your attempts to stay awake. I hate this time of night because it means I can’t talk to you, calling out because I saw, heard, or thought something I can’t keep to myself. I can’t be with you in your dreams, experiencing events together. I hate it because I miss you.

Goodnight my love, goodnight.

Who I was, Who I am

I arrived broken.

Alone, scared, evanescent, identityless.

I was a middle-aged child who had been homeless between four walls.

I was emotionless and empty, not knowing, or caring, if I was alive.

I wondered, if my car stalled on the tracks with a train hurling towards it, would I get out?

I had lived in a world of ugliness and filth, with all exits blocked.

I could look at the sky and see nothing but a cold, stark shell, unaware I existed.

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I depart a whole man.

Full of life, joy, love, and belonging.

I know my place, I know my role.

I know myself.

I’ve seen places that took away my breath and laughed until I couldn’t breathe.

When I look up, the sky isn’t bleak, it’s a universe of wonder, waiting to be examined.

The scars are still there, but I don’t mind.

They remind me where I came from, and show me who I am.

It’s me, I’m alive.

Here I come.

Love Hurts (yea yea)

I met you just last year

But I’ve known you all my life

Your love’s carved into my heart

With a freshly sharpened knife

I love being near you

For your whisper soft touches

Your love lifts me high

Like a new set of crutches

We laugh and we talk

We’re very good friends

I feel your love in my bones

Like a case of the bends

I love you my dear

With all of my might

I’ll love you forever

Till I see the big white light

Inside Jokes

You’re such a good person

You always defend

The loser or underdog

Either enemy or friend

You have strong opinions

On how I should behave

On how I should dress

And how often I shave

You’re such a good person

You don’t like to mock

Not even the girl

Who calls it “The Iraq” and such as

I love who you are

You’re kind of my hero

Even when Morty explains

How he knows it’s not Coke Zero

So don’t change a thing

You are so awesome

You are so awesome

You are so awesome

Ode to a Brownie

I love you my little brownie

So chocolatey and sweet

Your goodness flows right through me

From my head down to my feet

The chunckiness of your chips

The denseness of your cake

The moistness of your insides

My hunger you do slake

I eat you with great fervor

I consume you with much haste

I hold my hand beneath you

So your crumbs I do not waste

I love you my little brownie

And I say this from my core

I’ll miss you forever now that you’re gone

Oh wait, Matt brought more!

Awake

Awake in bed again
The clock face says half past four
Why, oh why won’t my mind let me sleep
I don’t want to think about her anymore

I can’t shake her image from my head
I can’t stop thinking about her eyes
A green so perfect, so rich and dark
They flicker when she lies

The scent of her perfume is exquisite
It’s got an immaculate bouquet
It makes my knees weak when she walks close to me
It pains me to walk away

It’s over, it’s done
We both knew that when I closed the door
So why can’t I stop caressing her with my thoughts
I don’t want to feel this way anymore

Internet Blues

I got a message on Gmail
Just the other day
HotChicArizona
Had something to say

She said she wanted to connect
I thought she meant at my place
She sent back a smiley
Turns out she meant at MySpace

“OIC,” I lamented
“LOL,” she replied
So I clicked on her picture
But my access was denied

So I surfed to eHarmony
To find some eLove
It found my perfect match
Well, maybe sort of

I clicked on the link
So I could see more
But it wasn’t to be
Error 404

So I downloaded some iTunes
Made a new CDRom
Did a quick search on Google
I guess I’ll try Match.com

Alone

I’m single again
I’m all on my own
Nobody to greet
When I finally get home

I thought that I’d found
My one perfect mate
Never again would I need
To ask a girl on date

When I told her I loved her
The first time she cried
Then she said she loved me
Turns out that she lied

I called her all the time
When she was at school
But she rarely called me
I felt like a fool

When she graduated college
We got our own place
A really nice house
With plenty of space

It turns out that space
Wasn’t measured in feet
It was emotional distance
My discontent was complete

I was alone in the house
Even when she was there
I was alone in my love
She just didn’t care

So I’m single again
But don’t shed a tear
My girl didn’t leave
She was never really here

Winter Awakens

t was a dark, stormy night

Except, it was day
But the storm part is true
“Maybe T-storms,” they say.

It was cold, it was wet
The skies were dark grey
They said it might last
Until morning Sunday

So I pulled on my sweats
I slipped on my scuffs
I grabbed my old jacket
All cool-weather stuff

Out on the dry porch
I sat in a chair
I listened to the rain
Enjoyed the damp morning air

Not a single dog barked
While the rain fell in sheets
No radios blared
These were rare treats

But as I watched the ground puddle
I was thinking one thing:
“Ok Mr. Winter,
“Now time for SPRING!”